Today was emotionally draining. I haven't been that intense in a long time. Now that things are starting to settle down a bit I want to write about the positive things that happened today. I have to write it now or I will be in my head all night about it.
I have been dealing with Gavin's intensity really well lately. The effects aren't always permanent but I am controlling my own intensity while trying to teach him how to control his. Today I ordered him to sit on the couch. It was 8:45 am and I was afraid the neighbors might call the cops thinking we were the reason why he was screaming bloody murder! He was not happy about that. I made him wait there for a while before I even told him about the "growlies in his tummy." I have learned lately that if I start trying to talk to him too soon he gets more out of control. I calmed myself some by blogging then I sat next to him and told him I understood how he felt because I had growlies in my tummy too. He hugged me and I suggested he read to me. I love that I know reading diffuses his intensity. It worked like magic. We both calmed down.
Heath had a lot of his own stress today. I told him my perspective. I don't think we are on the same page but I felt better having said it and recognizing that it may have been my answer to prayers about this subject. Despite everything that was keeping Heath preoccupied, he still gave me several unsolicited hugs. Tight ones. The kind that leave me with no doubt that he loves me a lot.
I got several well timed phone calls today from nurses and family. As a result, I did not throw the contents of the brown box across the room, much less off the Golden Gate Bridge! I'm still not thrilled about this whole continuous glucose monitoring system but I am willing to try it. The Sunscreen Song tells us to "do one thing every day that scares you."
While all of those things that happened today are great, I would have to say that the best thing that happened was that Heath found this song!
This version is the only one I can stand of this song. Nelly Furtado needs Chris Martin singing with her to make it sound good. His voice is incredible. And mixed with hers . . . I get chills every time!!! This song takes me back to several car rides around town not long before we moved to CA. I can still remember Parker (the DJ, not my Parker) calling her Smelly Furtaco. I don't remember the radio station I listened to. Sad. Has it been that long that I can't remember the name of the station with Chunga and Mister in the morning? I only liked the afternoon show when Parker was the DJ. Everyone hated Parker. I thought he was funny and witty and he had good taste in music.
The next best thing that happened today was "Mercy" danced by Twitch and Katie and "Bleeding Love" danced by Chelsie and Mark. Chills all over again! This is the first time we saved an episode of So You Think You Can Dance this season. I have been so disappointed with this season. I love that we saved the episode with awesome dances from last season!
It's been a long and exhausting day with many discouragements and shocking news. The Lord has blessed me all day with the things I needed. That is worth remembering!