Hours of preparation, excitement, and anticipation ended in the biggest belly flop I have experienced in my life as a mother. I called Heath to whine about it. I told him it was probably all in my head and that reality was nothing like what I imagined. Then I checked the video. Reality is exactly what I imagined only 10 times worse. I feel no anger. I don’t even really want to cry. I just want to scream in frustration. What a waste of time and energy. GRRRRR!!!!!!!
She announced it was Gavin's turn to do his speech. He ran for the door without a word. He had left the DVD in his backpack. I wondered if the teacher even had a TV because I couldn't see one. He handed her the DVD and she slid the whiteboard over revealing a TV. She put the DVD in and asked if it was ready to go. Normally when we make these homemade DVD's Heath sets it up so it automatically plays. This time he had it so you push play first. I told her to hit play. She did something then walked away and Gavin was already halfway through the first sentence so I was frantically trying to start the Flip. I didn't notice the video never played. I thought it was just really quiet which is what I wanted anyway.
When he was finished answering questions he handed me the DVD. I slipped it in my purse along with the cameras and tried to discreetly escort Parker and Gwen out the door. The teacher had said that Gavin should go next since his brother and sister were getting antsy. I was not offended. I felt bad and I still do. I expect more from my kids even though they really weren't that bad.
I can't even show the video since the file is too big for Blogger. We also stayed up late making Gavin a BYU t-shirt since he's the only one in the family who doesn't have one that fits. The iron left some weird black essence in the back and while we were looking at that the backing started to prematurely come up so the last two letters in "Band of Brothers" look bad. It is what it is was our philosophy. And now this anticlimactic performance for a speech he was so prepared for. Ugh. Motherhood hurts today.