Doctrine and Covenants Section 58
2For verily I say unto you, blessed is he that keepeth my commandments, whether in life or in death; and he that is faithful in tribulation, the reward of the same is greater in the kingdom of heaven.
“We cannot see the future with precision, but we can know what the Lord intends and what it will take [for] each of us to qualify personally to participate.”
Henry B. Eyring
My faith took a hit last night. In the wee hours of the morning when I woke up and couldn’t go back to sleep and the gravity of the situation fully sunk in. I have been second guessing myself and the peace I thought I felt. Was that peace just a dream? A memory I made up? No. It couldn’t have been. It was real. The faith I had that things would work out as they would and I would be fine regardless of the outcome of a frustrating situation must be real. I have to keep believing that the Lord is mindful of me, my family, and what we’re going through right now.
It all could be a strange blessing in disguise. It all could be just a painful life lesson that will strengthen us as faithful followers of Jesus Christ. I don’t know. The rest of the story hasn’t happened yet. Right now it’s a grim chapter and I don’t feel bad for mourning over it a little. The scripture I shared sustained my faith before. For over two years actually. The blessing at the end of that trial was more than I could have ever imagined. So I have to believe again. There’s nothing else I can do but trust the Lord. And remind myself of God’s love for me.
Pray for us anyway because my faith is really wavering.